spill it all out

Ok i dont know what i am about to write but im just gonna say whatever comes to mind. First of all i dont hate you, as much as i want to i cant find the strenght to do it but i will no longer be weak to you. You got the best of me and theres no denying that. But i refuse to let it happen again. I figured you out though in my little two days of crying bit. You try to be everything to everyone which isnt always a bad thing. You want everybody to be happy so in exchange you try to be what they want you to be. Now she wanted you to be her man, more than a friend but she woulda accepted your friendship without all the extra stuff that you do and say. She doenst need all that but she wants that. I cant blame you for lieing to me either, you wanted me to be happy so you told me what i wanted to hear but that has to stop from this point on. If its not the truth dont tell me. Relationships have arguments and they have their ups and downs but you wanted to avoid that completely but without it were living a lie in the relationship. Everything isnt always perfect and the most beautiful things happen after the storms. We can never see the rainbow if you try to avoid the storm. Am i making sense? oh well if im not. I also figured out that we dont need to change anything to live with eachother. If we cant be who we really are around eachother then its no point in being together because our bad habits will creep back up eventually and if we have been hiding them this whole time then if we ever get married that will cause problems.Im too aggressive and your arent aggressive enough. You have to quit complying to everything i want and tell me no sometimes. Its ok to have a seperate opinion from me and if we aregue about slothes or shoes so be it. Were two different people you like one thig and i like the other. Its human nature. ok when i think somemore i'll write more. btw i love you bestfriend nick. You have soo been my rock through this whole thing. Thanks for the texts everymorning reminding me i can do this and thanks for the messages with all the sweet stuff you say. Your the best