Spring show

The spring show went really good, im really mad i didnt do african this time. i should have went instead of track practice but hopefully i can do it next year. All in all it was a great show.

crave

I crave your presence. Your company.
I crave your arms around my slender body.
your deep warm kisses give me chills. I crave your satin skin up against my silk.
One hand in my hair as you bring my face nigh, the other sneaky hand creeping slowly up my thigh.
I crave the beat in your chest harmonizing with the song in mine. oh, and the way your fingers tiptoe up and down my spine.
the way we would evade time
as you would invade my

privacy.

all my secrets, revealed as my clothes are peeled
from my body. Hot and sweaty. Ready
and waiting. Everything else around us is fading
until its just you and me.
My body screams "Please!" but you continue to tease.
My knees start shakin and my thighs start achin....
why won't you just GIVE me what I'm craving?
you grab my hair as you nibble my ear
then you leave a trail of kisses that lead to my

wetness.

sweat is
easing the tension between our skin.
again
your hands crawl up my thighs
as you gently ply
the two apart.
your face disappears as you begin your art.
The masterpiece you paint with your tongue,
you are the Talented One.
With each stroke,
I choke
as a deep moan deflates my lungs.
I try to escape you, I try to crawl away
But you pull my hips closer, forcing me to stay.
My right hand grabs sheets as the left hides my face
as your magnificent tongue explores my secret place.
chillbumps erupt from my peanutbutter skin
as uncontrollable convulsions are birthed from within.
Then
I am overcome with a shower of warm wet bliss.
Mission accomplished,you've spilled my sweetneess.
No one else could make me feel like this.
My Sweet Darling Love, I crave your kiss.

you.

I fantasize about you.
I often find myself thinking about you. i love the person you are. almost too good to be true. i love the way you think. i even dig your name.... it makes me smile. she whispered in my ear the night we met " he's gonna fall in love with you... just so you know." thats fine. i can deal with that. everytime i learn something new about you, it makes me more and more curious to learn more.... like a feign i guess. i wonder about you quite often. i wish i could be inside your mind and then take a field trip through your heart. then maybe later you can venture through mine. you'll get to see the thoughts i can only think and you'll get to hear the things i wish to say. you can make home in my heart and dwell there as long as you please. just dont take it from me. its all i have right now. if i let you in, i won't be afraid to fall... only because i know you would catch me. and i know that once you've caught me, you'll never let me fall again. i know that you'll never let me be lonely, nor will you cause my heart to feel that familiar pain......

You've got me

you got me feeling some kinda way, im gon talk my shit if thats ok....
you got me feelin a way im not used to, i used to not give a damn
but damn you got me feelin. feelin human with all the earthling emotions.
its a crazy notion, some kinda potion
you got me sippin on. slippin on
my words and chokin on my thoughts of
you thoughts of me. thoughts of we.... i mean... damn.
im feelin you... im really diggin you dude.
diggin so deep i hope i dont get buried.
because of my exposure to you, im losing my composure and you
have no idea that you're doing this to me.
free.
thats how i want to be. but im held captive to you and you to me.
i got you trapped inside my head, but you dont mind being there.
please understand
these were not my intentions and allow me to mention
i do not like this tension.
i'd put you out if i could,
i mean, i probably should and i would.....
but i can't.
with all my efforts there is no prevail,
no progression so theres recession.
sessions of unmade love and undiscussed conversations,
feelings of elation and the utmost stimulation of my imagination
take place in between my regular train of thoughts.
i fought with this,
only to collapse under its authority.
you enjoy the thought of me thinking about you.
you frollicking about in my dreams, at least thats how it seems.

Impossible woman

There is talk of this woman that drifts.
The tides of the wind sweep her in
the stars light her path as she slips away into the night.
There are many yet to behold her beauty; much as those who had.

She is a lover and many love her.

Men get weak from the mere thought of touching the softest skin.
Trains in their minds interrupt and collide as she passes and smiles "Hello."
She floats by as the rest of us walk and stare.
Never seen anyone like her. Wouldn't doubt that she came from a different world.
Comfort and peace rest on her chest.
Her lips call you by name and you obey.
And her eyes
Her eyes are the most beautiful thing you ever saw.
They embrace your face and speak without words. They beckon your trust and reveal her intentions.
Her kisses penetrate even to the deepest place.
Love is in her kiss.
They say you can see her smile with your eyes closed and she lingers in your dreams.
You'll fall in love with her and she will love you back.
She'll love you perfectly because she lives for love.
When in love and making love she'll make you love her way in love.
Her way in love is so deep in love and she's deep in love with being loved.

You want her and she gives. If she lay betrayed
You reach out for her and she is not there.
The mirage of water in the desert.
You lay parched.
If love is life then you are a zombie, trapped between worlds.
death in Love won't relieve you and life in Love won't satisfy you.
The craving you feel for her is an appetite unsatiable in this lifetime yet you still try.
Such a cruel enchantment for those who hurt her.
Nevertheless, she remains loved my many.
Just as swiftly as she came, she's gone.
She never stays long but she never stays gone

Its been a long time

Ok i know i havent written in forever but i forgot all about this and when i could write i didnt know what to say soo...update. Im sorry for what i didnt do for what i did do and for what you think i did. I can only give you my word at this point and that doesnt really mean much anymore but i told the truth after it all but you still didnt believe me but im not asking you to. Im perfectly happy with the way things are and i meant it when i said i wish you well, because everybody deserves to be happy so i hope your happy too.Any ways sooo our track team is makin moves this year! Were placing everytime we run and im placing in the 100 hurdles, 300 hundred...not so much but hey practice makes perfect and im ready for anything. School is a drag im so ready for the break but i am NOT ready for my baby to go to new york for the whole summer =( ima miss him soooooo much. Uh well saturday my parents are taking me shopping. im excited and i might go to G Day with the boys saturday well thats it for now =)

2.18.09

Yes yes yall im taken. My lovely bestfriend nick helped me a lot with this one(i love you bestie) he gave he all the courage and strenght i needed to go for what i wanted and i got eaxactly that. Jakel lockette is the hubby =) after being friends for years we makin it official soo ladied back off. For my cousins who have been beggin me to tell them about him im about to do it a lil later and pics from our date will be up later. Ok so baby's dark skinned, a lil taller than me, from new york,quiet,aggressive...basically everything i want lol i love you family. School's going soo good but my senior classes are gonna kick my ass! Ap euro history,anatomy,honors lit,dance,dance,jgg and advanced algebra trig! I can do it though. Well i gotta get ready for my date. be back with pics later

Where were you when everything was falling apart?

Let me tell you why i love him. He is the truth he is so real and i love the way that he makes me feel. I remember the very first day that i saw him(10th grade year) I found myself immediately interested in him its almost like i knew him from another life like maybe i was his husband maybe he was my wife. From there a friendship bloomed but i always thought he was the cutest thing. I watched him get treated like shit and helped him work through his problems ignoring my own and we became friends. But nobody ever knew because his girl would trip if she knew how well we clicked and i didnt wanna tell my current man because i knew he wouldnt understand and how could he understand what i didnt understand myself? I didnt know why i felt this way towards this boy and it wasnt love but i felt like i was being pulled in his direction but i never told him that and he felt the same but never told me that so we just kept giving advice about what we deserved and needed until our friendship grew and it grew and grew so strong that he was always the one texting me in the morning and at night and we realized that we were so right but the timing is all wrong so were here waiting and im infatuated something serious and thankfully so is he. Im happy once again folks and it came to me i didnt go looking for it
night night

change of career

Ok a lot of people have been telling me i have soft hands lately and that i give good massages so i think i should be a massage therapist lol. I really should because i was masaging my neck and it felt sooo good and i have really soft skin. This weekend my dad's letting me go out for a while thank goodness. Friday northspring basketball game Saturday chillin with tara and tiffany(we gettin fckd up) and sunday staying home like always. Im so glad i can get out just for a little while but i know my moms gonna be all worried and stuff. I keep telling her that its all over with now but she aint tryna hear me lol. Lock down aint so bad though i havent seen my phone since last tuesday night.I dont miss either of the causes of my punishment either even though i see one everyday we dont talk or nothin and it doesnt really bother me much. I can still get on aim,myspace,and facebook so hit me up there =) yea. My grades are gettin really really good im back to makin the good ones. I have the worst case of senioritis and i cant wait to graduate. I still wanna know to ga state but i dont because of certin stuff so im praying for that full track scholarship to UGA! Larry fitzgerald can get it all day. He is sooo damn sexy like wow he needs to go into my inferno with HIM because he could get it monday-friday and four times on a sunday.Anywho i gotta go take this black nail polish off and re-do it and talk to the future baby night guys aim me =)

update

Its been a while but life's good. School is godd glad to be back in the swing of things. The dude i never thought would like me actually does and its soo cool because were already friends so yea i excite. Im back to being the perky old me and i love it. Sunday my sister got baptised it was absolutly beautiful. ,. Its actually moved me to tears. I feel better about life right now its so much easier with this new found confidence and understanding. Anyway i found a new way to make money lol. Ive realized that im raelly good at writing so people pay me to write their papers so im getting that done and its benefiting my shoe habit. Music has been crazy for me a lot lately ive been listening to a lot of dedication's 3 and bjork weird combo i know but its on my ipod and i keep playing it. Ive been dreaming a lot more too its really weird because my dreams have taken a turn of direction but all in all im good people. still on lockdown and will be for a while but i live with it =)

Kristina's inferno(just read dante's inferno lol)

ok inferno number one is the hottest of them all
1.Converse all stars- id do almost anything for them, i just love them and would rather have two shirts and two jeans and 50 converse if i could but i cant well atleast not now.
2.Black finger nail polish. im soooo obcessed with it man its crazy and i never do a good job at painting my own nails but i dont care if it looks like shit as long as its black shit
3.Boys who have pretty eyes. i dont know why it this way but im in love with them all i get lost in eyes very easily and im such a sucker for blue eyes.
4.rare fine dark skinned boys. Most dark skinned boys are all ashy lookin and stuff but its rare that you find one who isnt like that at all. man its sexy sooo sexy that one is my freakin kryptonite and if i could i would be with him but i cant.But the boy im talking to now(jakell weird name i know)is a rare darksinned boy umph sexy but he's only 16 but age means nothing to moi lol.
5.Babies,id do anything for them i just love them to death and i cant ever be mad at them because i love them sooo much. Beautiful lil monsters arent they
6.HIM im not even gonna say his name but yep he's up there with the kryptonite if i say his name im sure i'll get chills man dang its rediculous but he has every boy ive ever met beat by a long ass shot!
7.Track, i run when im sick,mad,sad,happy or when im just in a mood i run. Nothing ever stops me at all not even the rain or cold. I love it so much and it helps release negative energy so i guess you can tell from my previous blog that i'll be running a lot lol.
8.Dance. Now i know im no where near the best dancer but hey i try to do the best i can which means dancing on shin splints and cut feet from african i dance my heart out on stage but i have to fix my face when i dance because i look upset. Oh im choreographing a peice for this years spring show!I know my readers will come see it because only my friends know about this blog lol.
9.My own mind. Its the 2nd hottest part of my hell because that shit works toooo fast even for me. Im always coming up with something maybe good or maybe bad but im always planning.And im always thinking and analyzing trying to find solutions to problems that cant and wont be fixed.Man that shit is burning right now but mostly because im doing this gay ass research paper.
10.I love tooo hard. I dont know how or when to let go of people. Im still holding on to people i shoulda been let go of.Yep my own personal levels of hell are pretty cool. I wish i had levels of heaven...maybe i do

Happens to everybody right?

Wrong lol
I seriously lost my mind but ive found it
the truth hurts when you really do hear it
it is true that i did go to the hospital a couple times
but it was always for minor things
and i was almost always high as fuck when going in to the hospital
I barely remember anything
I did get hit by a car
but the ribs were fractured never broken
listening to that boy again only because his mom works at the hospital i always went to
funny how that happens right
he's always the one taking me to the hospital
Always the one telling everybody what happened
always the one suppling my drugs to get high
real funny how it happens
but i had to tell my mommy everything, i didnt want to but she already kinda knew
im basically in pretty deep shit right now
no phone but im not allowed to talk to either of the boys anyway
she said she called him, damn i wish she didnt
but hey eveything happens for a reason
and im more focused on everything else anyway
and i have a 92 in honors chemistry
soooo excited, well if you want more facebook/myspace me
im sure you guys think im insane but i probably am
=)
kristina marie bailey

Heart

I got this feeling inmy chest
No less its just stress
burning and turning
into my soul
it hurt bad got me wishin
that you and me
never became we because you
dont know how to love me
and her
it hurt shit hurts really bad
But im sick of being stressed
maybe even sad
Im sorry that i feel this way
and i have nothing more to say
because if i say what i mean
it wont have any effect
Im pissed off
far from stressed
but im gonna take my time
and get over this shit
instead of following my instincts
and get my quick fix

The way i feel about her

She is so beautiful
in many ways than one
she means everything
She is my moon and my sun
Her laugh is something beautiful to hear
There is nothing she fears
I love her more than anyone else
Something special she is
Have you seen her eyes?
They are beautiful for hours i could look at them
And he skin! she is soft as silk
i swear id drink her bath milk
And those lips, the softest things in the world
Kristina marie bailey is my beautiful girl
But she doesnt see me like "that"
I wish she would
Theres soo much i wanna show her
If only she would,
let me in her life
her beautiful soul needs love
and i wanna give it to her
if she will accept.

the wind danced in her hair that day

The sweetest sadness in her eyes. I wish i could make it all go away.
written by drew

Imperfections

I have many imperfections which you can see right through
I talk about them all the time
But they dont mean much to you
My teeth arent perfectly straight
And im not the best girl
But you still tell me im great
And make me feel perfect in your world
You get mad when i say im not beautiful
And i hate to admit it but i love it
I love how you correct me when im outta line
You dont just forget the argument
Even when i try to
You say your point and tell me not to "whatever" you
haha i love when you say that
It forces me to say how i really feel instead of just whatever
You say you dont see how your right for me
but i dont see how your wrong
Everything about you isnt perfect
You lie and get on my nerves
but if you were perfect
I dont think id like you
because nothing is better than the make up
Even though we broke up
Your still right for me
And like i said before
i'll be here
waiting
for
you
to
see
right through all my imperfections
like you always do
make me look into your big beautiful honey brown eyes
which i could get lost in forever
Tell me you love me and mean it
because like i said before
thats all im asking for
nothing more
just love
because as long as the love is there
we can make it
i love you my squish
i'll be here waiting....

If

If i could hear your heartbeat id be ok
Hold you in my arms
for just one day
Theres so much you should know
but i know no how to tell you
through the tears
because i know i'll cry
and i'll cry hard
but that wont bring us back
back to where we started
How can it just be over
im fighting the tears now
theres so much i wanna tell you
but i just dont know how