2.18.09

Yes yes yall im taken. My lovely bestfriend nick helped me a lot with this one(i love you bestie) he gave he all the courage and strenght i needed to go for what i wanted and i got eaxactly that. Jakel lockette is the hubby =) after being friends for years we makin it official soo ladied back off. For my cousins who have been beggin me to tell them about him im about to do it a lil later and pics from our date will be up later. Ok so baby's dark skinned, a lil taller than me, from new york,quiet,aggressive...basically everything i want lol i love you family. School's going soo good but my senior classes are gonna kick my ass! Ap euro history,anatomy,honors lit,dance,dance,jgg and advanced algebra trig! I can do it though. Well i gotta get ready for my date. be back with pics later

Where were you when everything was falling apart?

Let me tell you why i love him. He is the truth he is so real and i love the way that he makes me feel. I remember the very first day that i saw him(10th grade year) I found myself immediately interested in him its almost like i knew him from another life like maybe i was his husband maybe he was my wife. From there a friendship bloomed but i always thought he was the cutest thing. I watched him get treated like shit and helped him work through his problems ignoring my own and we became friends. But nobody ever knew because his girl would trip if she knew how well we clicked and i didnt wanna tell my current man because i knew he wouldnt understand and how could he understand what i didnt understand myself? I didnt know why i felt this way towards this boy and it wasnt love but i felt like i was being pulled in his direction but i never told him that and he felt the same but never told me that so we just kept giving advice about what we deserved and needed until our friendship grew and it grew and grew so strong that he was always the one texting me in the morning and at night and we realized that we were so right but the timing is all wrong so were here waiting and im infatuated something serious and thankfully so is he. Im happy once again folks and it came to me i didnt go looking for it
night night

change of career

Ok a lot of people have been telling me i have soft hands lately and that i give good massages so i think i should be a massage therapist lol. I really should because i was masaging my neck and it felt sooo good and i have really soft skin. This weekend my dad's letting me go out for a while thank goodness. Friday northspring basketball game Saturday chillin with tara and tiffany(we gettin fckd up) and sunday staying home like always. Im so glad i can get out just for a little while but i know my moms gonna be all worried and stuff. I keep telling her that its all over with now but she aint tryna hear me lol. Lock down aint so bad though i havent seen my phone since last tuesday night.I dont miss either of the causes of my punishment either even though i see one everyday we dont talk or nothin and it doesnt really bother me much. I can still get on aim,myspace,and facebook so hit me up there =) yea. My grades are gettin really really good im back to makin the good ones. I have the worst case of senioritis and i cant wait to graduate. I still wanna know to ga state but i dont because of certin stuff so im praying for that full track scholarship to UGA! Larry fitzgerald can get it all day. He is sooo damn sexy like wow he needs to go into my inferno with HIM because he could get it monday-friday and four times on a sunday.Anywho i gotta go take this black nail polish off and re-do it and talk to the future baby night guys aim me =)

update

Its been a while but life's good. School is godd glad to be back in the swing of things. The dude i never thought would like me actually does and its soo cool because were already friends so yea i excite. Im back to being the perky old me and i love it. Sunday my sister got baptised it was absolutly beautiful. ,. Its actually moved me to tears. I feel better about life right now its so much easier with this new found confidence and understanding. Anyway i found a new way to make money lol. Ive realized that im raelly good at writing so people pay me to write their papers so im getting that done and its benefiting my shoe habit. Music has been crazy for me a lot lately ive been listening to a lot of dedication's 3 and bjork weird combo i know but its on my ipod and i keep playing it. Ive been dreaming a lot more too its really weird because my dreams have taken a turn of direction but all in all im good people. still on lockdown and will be for a while but i live with it =)